What to do now..
Idk what to do anymore. You don’t get it. You don’t care. You say sorry but you never mean it. What you did tonight was so malicious and disgusting and conniving. Idk why you think any of it’s okay. You don’t wanna lose me but you’re doing everything right TO lose ME. I don’t know what I want anymore. I tried to tell you how I feel tonight about everything and all you say is I’m bashing and insulting you, you just dk how to communicate. Ever. Idk what happened to you or us. It’s never gonna be the same. I know it. I miss who u used to be but that guys never coming back.
I finally got a new phone today after two years! A touch screen! Haha crazzayy. I love it.
My interview not well at all. This DUI has fucked up alot in my life. Maybe it’s all for a reason. Who fuckin knows. Im not expecting a call at all. But it is what it is.
Tonight was boring! Ppl always lie about what going on. Annoying.
I wish I was happier. I wish I knew how to change that.
ALOT OF IDKS TONIGHT.
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I’ve been in love with him and maroon 5 since freshman year. I need to go to one if their concerts before I die!
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Now you’re ignoring me. Cool. I wish I could just be carefree about everything. I wish I could not care anymore and be free, free of worry. You’d be pissed if I was doing this shit to you. You have no respect and never will. I know ur drinking, i wasn’t born yesterday. You can’t hang out with him and not drink. You lied about it last time, like you wouldnt do it again. And you wonder why I’ve been weird, look at what ur doing.
GOD please guide me and help me with tomorrow. I need this more than anything. I need to get a move on with my life. Please let me be what they’re looking for. Please god give me the confidence I need to succeed tomorrow. PLease please please don’t let my mistake of getting a DUI get in the way of this. Amen.
Thoughts of the day..
I love putting on sweats and a long sleeve tshirt after work and watching tv. Not having to worry about going anywhere, being on time, or worry about getting ready. It’s my “me” time. I love it. Of course you’re hanging out with them, but whatever. Honestly it doesn’t phase me anymore. It’s just gonna make me more distant. Idk if that’s a good or bad thing. Work sucked ass. I’m sick of ppl. So annoying and rude all the time. It just makes me think they weren’t raised right. I always let that stuff get to me. I hate feeling like i have no one to vent to or talk to about anything. You don’t know how to ever listen. How can I talk to you about anything when were together in the future. When I try to get shit off my chest you just bring me down more and point out my flaws and ask why I can’t just be better if that’s what people expect of me. Thats not what I’m looking for. I’m lookin for a listener. That’s all. There’s nothing I can say to make you understand. I just shut down now. Thank god for tumblr.
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How I feel everyday at work haha
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Thought before bed.
I need to figure out what I’m doing with my life. I do not want a part time job forever. I’m sick of people telling me to smile all the time. Or smile more at any job I have. It’s not a fucking crime to not smile. Maybe if people weren’t so fucking rude and needy for food then I would smile. People get so mad over the stupidest shit. It’s food. Chill the fuck out.
I hate the week or two before I start my period. I’m always in a blah mood and everyone and everything annoys me. I just want to be able to feel comfortable in everything I do. I wish I wasnt breaking out all the time. I had good skin for the logest time and now it’s just pimple here, there, and theyre never poppable. It’s like why now? It’s make my confidence at the lowest of lows.
I feel like we’re missing a piece of the puzzle. I feel like were not as close as we used to be. In some weird way. I think thats what’s keeping us apart, what makes me feel the way I do. I wish you would just simply want to hang out And be loving or be my best friend again. I hate feeling pressured all the time if we don’t do anything sexual, you’re gonna feel unwanted and rejected when u should think about other ppl other than urself. I have feelings too and I shouldn’t have to ever feel that way. One person in a relationship should never feel that way. It’s making me distant toward you. I don’t want to hang out with you because it’s always something about sex. Any kind. I’m over it. Theres more to a relationship than just that. That’s been bugging me so much lately. You say I don’t do anything for you but when I do you don’t appreciate it so I dont bother bc I don’t want to feel hurt like I do now. You just say words. Theres no actions. Sorry means it’s over and done with and you understand, not to shut me up. I’m not happy right now. Sleep sounds great.
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